~I wish you weren’t in my dreams~

I had my heart broken by the same guy for many times but the lesson I learned was that he is never gonna change but I am. So I need to live with the memories but create new ones even though I know I’ll be with someone else and they will be holding me and in my mind I still have the memory of him.

Sometimes my heart hurts so much, I beat it with my fists. I try to run. But you cannot run from this. It waits for you. Even when you think you have escaped it, it is there.People think they know me, but they don't. Not really. Actually, I am one of  the loneliest people on this earth. I cry sometimes, because it hurts. It does. To be honest, I guess you could say that it hurts to be me.

It hurts to say goodbye to someone you love but its the best for both of us to move on.

I have no regrets in my life. I think that everything happens to me for a reason. The hard times that I go through build character, making me much stronger person. I refuse to let what happened to me make me bitter. I still completely believe in love and I'm open to anything that will happen to me.

It’s not easy to forget someone- I may never forget him… But deep in my heart I must forgive him . You can learn from it. Everything in life is a lesson- what you take from what you learned is what is important. If something did or didn’t happen, it did or didn’t for a reason. The first 3 days of a break up are the hardest- but each day that goes by is easier. Sometimes it takes a heart break to learn what we really need and want in life- and its those who don’t stop until they have just that 100% who truly succeed. You may no longer have that person, but you have the lesson, the will power, the knowledge, and the reason to find someone THAT MUCH BETTER!

I still crying, really I do but I guess I just dont want to give him the satisfaction of  knowing that he  hurt me... once again.

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken, and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken pieces as long as I lived.

Liars.
How hard is it?
There was nothing I denied him of.
He had everything in me.
The one thing I can’t get back.
I gave up EVERYTHING for him…
I loved him with every part of me.
I would’ve died for him.

but it still wasn’t good enough..

.:: Betapa Berharganya Wanita ::.

Ketika Tuhan menciptakan wanita, malaikat datang dan bertanya,"Mengapa begitu lama engkau menciptakan wanita, Tuhan?"

Tuhan menjawab,"Sudahkah engkau melihat setiap detail yang telah aku ciptakan untuk wanita?" Lihatlah dua tangannya mampu menjaga banyak anak pada saat bersamaan, punya pelukan yang dapat menyembuhkan sakit hati dan kerisauan, dan semua itu hanya dengan dua tangan".

Malaikat menjawab dan takjub,"Hanya dengan dua tangan? tidak mungkin!

Tuhan menjawab,"Tidakkah kau tahu, dia juga mampu menyembuhkan dirinya sendiri dan boleh bekerja 18 jam sehari".

Malaikat mendekati dan mengamati wanita tersebut dan bertanya,"Tuhan, kenapa wanita terlihat begitu lelah dan rapuh seolah-olah terlalu banyak beban baginya?"

Tuhan menjawab,"Itu tidak seperti apa yang kau bayangkan, itu adalah air mata."

"Untuk apa?", tanya malaikat.

Tuhan melanjutkan,"Air mata adalah salah satu cara dia menunjukkan kegembiraan,kerisauan,cinta,kesepian, penderitaan,dan kebanggaan,serta wanita ini mempunyai kekuatan mempesona lelaki,ini hanya beberapa kemampuan yang dimiliki oleh wanita.

Dia dapat mengatasi beban lebih baik dari lelaki,dia mampu menyimpan kebahagiaan dan pendapatnya sendiri,dia mampu tersenyum ketika hatinya menjerit kesedihan,mampu menyanyi ketika menangis, menangis saat terharu,bahkan tertawa ketika ketakutan.

Dia berkorban demi orang yang dicintainya,dia mampu berdiri melawan ketidakadilan,dia menangis saat melihat anaknya adalah pemenang,dia gembira dan bersorak saat kawannya tertawa bahagia,dia begitu bahagia mendengar suara kelahiran.

Dia begitu bersedih mendengar berita kesakitan dan kematian,tapi dia mampu mengatasinya.Dia tahu bahwa sebuah ciuman dan pelukan dapat menyembuhkan luka.


Allah S.W.T berfirman:

"Ketika Aku menciptakan seorang wanita, ia diharuskan untuk menjadi seorang yang istimewa. Aku membuat bahunya cukup kuat untuk menopang dunia, namun, harus cukup lembut untuk memberikan kenyamanan."

"Aku memberikannya kekuatan dari dalam untuk mampu melahirkan anak dan menerima penolakan yang seringkali datang dari anak-anaknya. "

"Aku memberinya kekerasan untuk membuatnya tetap tegar ketika orang-orang lain menyerah, dan mengasuh keluarganya dengan penderitaan dan kelelahan tanpa mengeluh."

"Aku memberinya kepekaan untuk mencintai anak-anaknya dalam setiap keadaan, bahkan ketika anaknya bersikap sangat menyakiti hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kekuatan untuk menyokong suaminya dalam kegagalannya dan melengkapi dengan tulang rusuk suaminya untuk melindungi hatinya."

"Aku memberinya kebijaksanaan untuk mengetahui bahwa seorang suami yang baik takkan pernah menyakiti isterinya, tetapi kadang menguji kekuatannya dan ketetapan hatinya untuk berada disisi suaminya tanpa ragu."

"Dan akhirnya, Aku memberinya air mata untuk dititiskan. Ini adalah khusus miliknya untuk digunakan bilapun ia perlukan."

"Kecantikan seorang wanita bukanlah dari pakaian yang dikenakannya,sosok yang ia tampilkan, atau bagaimana ia menyisir rambutnya.Kecantikan seorang wanita harus dilihat dari matanya, kerana itulah pintu hatinya, tempat dimana cinta itu ada."


"CINTANYA TANPA SYARAT. HANYA ADA SATU YANG KURANG DARI WANITA , DIA SELALU LUPA BETAPA BERHARGANYA DIA . . ."

.:: Beauty~?? ::.

You told me I was beautiful,

It meant so much to me,

But when I looked into the mirror,

There was no beauty I could see.

I asked you why you said that,

I asked you why you lied,

Then you told me to look closer,

Because I'm beautiful inside.

:: Thank you to Ummi and Abah, only you can judge me truely~~ <3

.:: My Happiness ::.

~My Classmate~

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.